ugh. I can't wait for this month to end. SO tired of this endless cycle.
Heres some arts-


( scroll down. you get special treet. )

Ok. long time no post. I should post moar. here is some stuff in the mean time.

( it are true. I has arts. )

I don't have art. i may not have some for a while.

I think this month breaking point just happend. My big black cat has not been coming around as much and this evenin he did not come by at all.

man, i really hate this place. It seems there is just so much pain here and honestly i feel utterly alone. even if I logicaly know i am not alone and that reasonably i have a lot...it does not feel that way...and that hurts. I really hate ending another day knowing i spent it boxed inside this house speaking to almost no one else but my family. pretty pathetic huh.
I was handling the emotions ok until the stray cat did not come by..and i've been lingering over photos of my other cat Nova, who is burried in the back yard.

all i can think is that moving just can not happen soon enough. This place really has heald little more then mysery and lonelyness and I am tired of being home sick for trees and animals and all the things i can relate to that just are absent here. The people here are different. City people that only know a City life. Ah well. I gues to a certian degree that is life right?

I really do not like feeling this way. I am too tired of it. I hope we get this house on the market so we can move and once again live in a place that is at least of some comfort.

life. huh.

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just an emotional rant. tomorow morning i will be fine. right now i am just letting out some stress and extra emotions. ^_-

Life is full of crap lately.( when does that ever change, yes?)

art under cut.

I'll never post those witty funny journal titles.

here is some foodz(art) for thought.


Working on Flare's Ref sheet. She is a very very special dragon to me since she is my only character that is every depicted as being truely happy. That is a big thing for me. I am still searching for that happyness.

Soo. I never write much? well here is some fun stuff for you guys :D




ENOUGH OF MY GARBLE. that is not why any one is here! here is some...arts..

SOME arts. I need to be making more arts though. T_T damn i am emotional.

( arts are good for brain developement )

gather around kiddies! it is art time!

Yeah, so I got some of the stuff i took photos up fixed and loaded. I am going to attemp taking photos of the other stuff i have done later. Nuke, did I show you that Male dragon i re-painted????

ok. ready? are you sure?


( oh just click this. )

no art. cus I suck at life.

life, you bite, and this city sux. some day you will go into a blender and then be burned, and then burried, and then i will leave you behind and regret nothing. I hate this place.

again you fail at life. good job.

DARN IT! I have art. sketches and what not....but nothing really finished of my own.....


I don't seem to get over this feeling of...................not caring. I just really do not care at all.

and even more...it does not bother me that I don't care.


So I have a goal of posting art.............and maybe some time in the future I will post some...hopefully sooner then later.

all the sketches I have been hoarding so far:




















I'm to lazy to post these any other way. the first 4 are a new sketch book(cause I could not find the one i was working on) and the others are all from Shin's sketchbook.

Yeah, this is pretty true.

You Are 35% Angry

You're occasionally angry, but it's really not an issue. While you may give in to your temper once and a while, you're pretty mellow. And as long as your anger doesn't effect your relationships, then it's probably in check. You know that anger is a bad habit - and you don't engage in it often.

and you can find way more art here>>
http://biorave.forum5.com/index.php?mforum=biorave











RANTRANTRANTRANTRANTRANT

at least I feel like it. It must because it is my week for PMS....but realy...i have this lack of wanting to draw. I would like to be doing anything else but draw..
acualy I have..
but even more, I want nothing to do with DA. I mean really, it isn't just the usual I hate DA feeling... it's like......lets seee, it feels so empty and useless...other then watching other artists. Personal, that is it. When I have been putting art up there, it feels like I am doing it as a machine...not something personal that I am sharing..
and the feedback is equaly horrible usualy. lol. I feel like the drive by car wreck that every one slows down to stare at, then keeps driving.

and when I look at my account, it seems to make me very irritated and feeling snarky.


I want to share my art....but not on some where that is making me feel all irritated at the moment....so Until this passes I am going to open up a forum for dumping my art, and for a few other people I respect to dump thier art. People I feel close to as an artist.

ok. Off too sketch and do stuff.. i'll post back later.

FREAKING JERKS! Some artits really have GOD COMPLEXES!!!"oh, her style is not "artistic" enough..ignore her."


Damn stuck up snobs. Now I remember why I ran away from that place.


here is are for you:

rant: I HATE BEING SICK! I HATE IT I HATE IT! darn it...when will it end../end rant

I have not been able to do much art the past 2-3 days. sick and so tired.

Right hand click on the image and select view to see them better.

Be sure to scrole way down